Two big kids, off to school.
I can’t help thinking in nevers and lasts instead of firsts.
The good nevers and lasts, like “never paying for child care again” and “last time shuttling from this drop-off to that drop-off.”
And the bad ones, like “Never again being the mother of a baby or a toddler or a preschooler.”
Like so many other parents today, I’m sad because I feel the door closing on this time in our family’s life. I know the tears sliding down my cheeks today are not for the brave boy with the Superman backpack. They are for the boy who’ll never go to kindergarten.
But this is not the last day without him. It is only one of many.
And it is the first day in a new and exciting world for my kindergartner. When I pick him up today, I’ll compose myself and celebrate with him.
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BIG HUGS. (Holy rollercoaster of a morning! HAPPY! SAD! HAPPY!)
Great big ((HUGS)).
Go for that massage!
Binkytowne has it exactly – happysadhappy. Thinking of you.
And what a grown up pair they are!
Amazing, isn’t it – how you can be so happy and sad at the same time? What a wonderful pair you have!
Melancholy and beautiful.
I so get this. But the good news is that in less than ten years, you will celebrate the first day of school with other joyful moms and mimosas. Or so I hear.
Good for you for celebrating and remembering. [Sending you a hug!]